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10-25-18 // 9:43 am

if it's not supposed to be, then I'll just let it be

NP: Snail Mail - "Lush"

I love my people, I just wish they were better about loving me back. Looking back at my life, it seems like that's been a constant, these sorts of disproportionate affections. I don't know how to not love with my whole heart, even if it means half the times it's just left hanging, or wanting more.

I'm pushing 40, and more and more I keep feeling like there's simply something wrong with me. Or at the very least, I'm a freak of emotional nature that no one will ever match up with in the same way. I'd like to be #1 one someone's speed dial.

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